Emotionally exhausted today. I feel like I could sleep for a year at this point. I just wish I could understand why some things unfold the way they do. The hardest part is trying to figure all of this out in my own head without a verbal explaination for why things have went down the way they have. Without an explaination there is no hope for change. But, maybe some people are beyond change. I know I need to just accept some things and move on, but not knowing why is the hardest obstacle in moving forward. I know that everything happens for a reason, but in the times that could apply the most are the times it seems like the biggest cliche out there.